Wednesday, October 18, 2017

so much to ask for

so much to ask for

"You, didn't get your flu shot?" Josh looked at Xander as if he must be a bad boy, after all.

"I didn't think about it." He did have a cough and a fever. Oh, and a headache that would not go away. Of course, he didn't think Josh would be at the emergency room.

Josh took his stats.

Xander felt as if his throat was burning. Even his ears.

"Its probably my sinuses." Xander guessed. Of course, he hadn't felt well since the disturbing phone call he got. Honestly, he didn't even know how the guy got his number.

"You aren't really congested." Josh told him. "How's everything going?"

It was true, it had been ages since they'd seen each other. They'd worked together a short while as medics.

"um.." He really didn't want to bring up his mother, but finally he told Josh about going to the funeral in Seoul.

"So, you've been out of the country?" He wrote that down in Xander's file. "The doctor might want to run some test."

Xander didn't like the sound of that.

" mother's son..called me." Xander thought it might help if he told someone about Kevin. But the way he felt at the moment, it was just a bad dream, perhaps.

"Kevin?" Josh looked at him. "Where is he?"

"Busan." Xander was even lipped. "I don't even know him..and he calls me. Mad, at me."

"Mad? Like how?" Josh winced.

"He..he says I took her, away from him..and..and she never ever mentioned him. She didn't." Xander was almost in tears and the cough was back. He felt so weak.

Before he knew it, Josh had him hooked up to an IV. Evidently, he wasn't going, anywhere.

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

nice to meet you

nice to meet you

Howie saw that Gabby was with someone while waiting in line at the Sushi place. He was with Ruby.

Lately, they'd been going everywhere together. And he'd found himself living at her place.

He wasn't sure if he wanted Gabby to know about this, but still felt it was better to be up front about it. There was no sense hiding it.

He motioned for them to come with them. They could eat together. He introduced Gabby to Ruby. "We used to work together." He told her.

She looked Gabby over, but remained silent.

Gabby introduced them to Ste, who smiled and shook Howie's hand.

Miraculous, they didn't hold up the line and the waitress took all four of them to a table.

"I love this place." Ruby said as she looked over the menu.

Gabby looked at Howie. He knew what her eyes were asking (how could this happen?)

Howie grinned.

"So where did you two meet?" He needed to sound like the older oppa, that he was.

He could see Gabby wanted to be alone with Ste, instead of with him and Ruby.

"Oh, I know her sister." Ste told him. "She used to be with my brother, in England."

"Oh." Howie nodded.

"OH MY're from England?" Suddenly, Ruby wanted to know all about him.

Gaby looked at Howie as if this was such a bad idea, this impromptu dinner.

Now Ruby was monopolizing the whole conversation.

Monday, October 16, 2017

the fever of fall

the fever of fall

"She asked him?" Charlie hadn't meant to sound so dreadful, when Lily told her the news about Macy and Draco.

"Yeah, that's what dad said." She'd spent a weekend of  picking apples and pumpkins, out at the pumpkin patch with her dad and new fiance Macy.

Charlie couldn't believe it. But then again, she knew Draco never thought of the obvious thing to do. She went back to cutting a slice of hot lasagna for Lily's supper.

"You're not mad, are you?" Lily looked at Charlie as if she'd spoken of a forbidden subject.

"Oh no." Charlie did her best to be her calm self. Still, this had shaken her. She didn't want to be irritated by their decision. She would do her best to always be friends with Lily's father..but still..

She squinted hard with her back to Lily at the kitchen counter.

Why Macy? Macy of all people.

Wasn't Charlie the one who introduced Draco to Macy? She never ever expected this to happen. After all, Macy had been like a little sister. She'd really wanted to be there for her, during her whole pregnancy, but Draco took over.

"Maybe, its because you..always expected her to be on your side, not his." Barry said later when she was cutting him a slice of pumpkin pie, after Lily went to bed.

"I dunno." Charlie didn't like the idea of Macy taking sides. "Maybe." Charlie shook her head. She didn't think so.

"You, aren't mad are you?" Now Barry was asking the same question.

"No." She didn't think so. She didn't want to be.

"I..I just..maybe its too soon." Charlie was straight lipped then, as she sat down with her cup of decaf, and watched Barry eat the slice of goodness.

He gave her a taste at the end of his fork.

"Maybe, we should invite them over." Berry shrugged. "Celebrate or something."

Charlie shook her head slowly as she tasted all the pumpkin spice and sweetness in her mouth. Suddenly, she made a face of disgust. Her eyes sprang up. Was she sick?

She held her stomach and got up quick enough to make it to the bathroom in time.

A few minutes later Barry tapped on the bathroom door and asked if she threw up.

"No." Her voice echoed as she sat on the toilet. The smell was foul and such sewage to come from her own body. Still, she was waiting to throw up. She had intended too. "Just..just a number 2."

This couldn't mean anything. It couldn't. No. Still, she was certain her body was telling her something.

Sunday, October 15, 2017

the unspoken

the unspoken

Even now... Ste couldn't let it show.

It was terrible to hear Macy speak of Draco that way.

He winced hard thinking, he was just going to have to get used to it..wasn't he?

"We're getting married." Her blunt words still hurt to think on the conversation, from last week with Macy.

When she'd said it, he almost spilled his hot tea all over himself, back at Draco's apartment. He'd only came over to drop off some cookies from the bakery. A good excuse to see his namesake, baby Stephen.

The next thing he knew, he was agreeing to take Gabby to prom.

He winced harder now, remembering it was Homecoming. Honestly, he didn't know if there were much difference between the two. He never went to such non-sense when he was in school.

Didn't she know he didn't like to go to places in public? Never had. But he had to put on the best acting job he'd ever done.

He went to homecoming with Gabby.

Jules (his boss who owned the bakery) lended him something to drive. Even some extra cash for dinner.

He sucked in a breath now... as he hugged himself, curled up in his bed. He felt very grim, as he sank into the memories of that night.

He was so tired and sleepy, yet it was all so dreamy.

But he jerked himself up..before he could let himself go there. He jumped up and looked at the small bed. could they have done such a thing?


The smell of her..was still on the sheets. It smelled of lavender and lemon and of someone with a beautiful confidence.

God, no wonder he's slept so sound that night.

He nursed his bottom lip, before he could let himself turn into a mad man, about this.

Ste wondered if..if Gabby knew..

He squinted hard, not even wanting to let himself admit it.

It was his first time. split him.. in to... like a knife gutting him.

There was one side that was pure happiness. Splendid to know that he could be a part of a physical world, ready for exploration and a need...oh, it was a powerful need that hit him between his legs...

Ste gritted hard and sat down on the bed. He was full of guilt.

He was in a certain pain. What had happened to him? Why was it so..good..and raw..and..

He shook his head, no. He'd waited his life... not to be this person.


He shut his eyes tight.

A knock came to the door.

Ste thought he might choke on his own phlem. Slowly, he got up, wishing something hadn't swollen for the occasion.

Naturally, it was who he thought it would be.

Gabby's smile was genuine and it was so up close and personal. Her hands touched the jaw of his face and brought him down to her.

Did she have nothing to say? Of course, there was no time to speak. Her kiss pressed against his lips until a slither was open, and she took him in...his body and soul.