Tuesday, September 2, 2014

this and that

This & That

"So what has Gage told you?"

Carson was surprised to hear his father's question.

"About what?" Carson winced. He really hadn't expected his dad to drop in at work, but then again, his father did work on campus. It was kind of hard to get used too. Maybe he was spending too much time with Essie these days.

"I dunno. What is troubling him?" His Dad wanted to know.

"Like I would know." Carson couldn't help but let a small laugh slip.

"You know, he's his own worst enemy." His dad talked about his grades. How he should be doing, compared to how he was doing. "He's not like you." His dad sighed, remembering how Carson couldn't help but want to learn to read. He teased him about his notebooks with the Ninja Turtle names in them when he was four. "You, have a special drive for success."

"Well...I dunno..about that." Carson was certain he could have done better in school. He wished he had, but he was seeing to his mother back then, and school wasn't exactly his priority.

"I mean, I'm thankful he's..he's doing as well..as he is, but something is up. He won't let me in." His dad shrugged as if he should be closer to Gage.

"That's just Gage." Carson told his Dad that he needed to accept the fact that Gage was different. Carson topped off his Dad's mug of coffee. "Well, what do we need to do?"

Carson wanted to spend more time with Essie and her family. There was always something to do at her house. Some how, he felt safer about so many things in life when he was with her and her family. He didn't mean to be selfish.

"I dunno. Maybe we need to go camping." His dad smiled.

"Just us?" Carson wondered if Ren would come. Maybe he could ask Essie.

"Yeah, that might be best." His dad looked up at him as if Carson might think up something better.

"I dunno. Maybe..maybe we just need a family meeting." Carson thought they needed to get to the point. He could see Gage evading the issue. What ever that might be. "Just come over to my place."

"Are you sure?" His Dad looked at him. "I mean, he's upset. You, think its about Ren and me?" His Dad said it like an after thought.

"Well, that was kind of fas,t Dad." Carson hated to break it to him, yet he did feel comfortable enough to call him Dad.

"About that." His dad pressed his lips tight as if he had a very good explanation for being with Ren. "I don't know what to tell you. I mean...I..I hadn't dated..since..I can't remember..honestly, I don't want to remember." But he was smiling when he brought up Ren's name. "She's so easy to talk too. I feel really ..happy..around her. And..and..I don't want to mess this up with Gage. I know he needs me, but I'm pretty sure he's got it in his head that he doesn't need any of us."

"He's got issues. He always has." Carson reminded him.

"Yeah, I know." His dad sighed. Carson started to say it was all their mother's fault.

Monday, September 1, 2014

where do we go from here

Where do we Go from Here

"Are you, even listening to me?" Gage was serious. He needed someone to listen. This whole fiasco with Mary just brought him closer to his Dad. "God, he spends all his freak'n time with me, now."

He was growing restless and Holden never brought up the kiss. They would never bring up the kiss. Never.

"Yeah, yeah..your old man cares about you." Holden was being indifferent and Gage swelled a frown. It wasn't even fun at work.  They were seriously short handed these days without Derrick. They had been for a while. Gage guessed there were cutback everywhere. But here, everything had been shiny and new until now.

Even working at the pizza station was getting dismal.

"Why do you get worked up about all this stuff?" Naturally, Matti was back and Holden was on good behavior. He saw her everyday. Some days she even showed up here.

"Because..." Gage was leaning into Holden by the counter. Must he remind him about his Halie predicament?

"So what are you two love birds doing?" A female voice said. Immediately, Holden and Gage jumped away from each other as if someone had caught them, together.

"Who are you?" Gage scrunched a face.

"I'm the new help." She smiled.

"She's in salads." Holden festered a look as if he knew exactly who she was.

Gage only squinted. How come? He hadn't noticed her?

"I'm Macy." She offered him a handshake, but he didn't have one for her. "Oh, I know you two." She mimicked a little hand jester that was their common practice out back by the bread cases.

"What is that suppose to mean?" Gage was ever so bitter that Macy was here to cramp their style.

"I dunno." She let a smile slip. It was a beautiful smile with her ever so plush lip. Gage thought he might pass out.

Sunday, August 31, 2014

Finding the road not taken

Finding the road not taken

"I just don't know if I like this, at all." Camille said, but Josie wasn't really sure if she was listening as she was packing her bags, ready to go on this roadtrip.

"It will be fine." Josie gave her mother a dead stare.

"But there are wild fires, tornadoes, even earth quakes in Oklahoma." Her mother reminded her of all the stories she heard on the news.

Josie rolled her eyes as if her mother had to be kidding her.

"I think you just really want to get away with Sky, don't you?" Her mother smirked. "Maybe you two will end up on a dude ranch."

"Mom..I want to see Dean. I have to see Dean." Josie informed her as she dragged the suitcase to the curb.

"What is in there? A wedding dress or something?" Her mother teased.

"I dunno, what I'll need." Josie shrugged as she packed her things into the Silver Soul KIA. Granted it was a used car her father got her for college, even if college was still a semester or two away. She barely drove it to and from school and work. It was time to see just how well her baby, nick-named Louie, could do on the road.

"You'll need snacks. Can't have you spending a fortune. Besides, you'll need your money and change for the toll roads." Her mother brought out a grocery bag of nuts and pre-packaged cookies. Duncan brought out the cooler of bottled water and chicken salad sandwiches.

Yes, they were preparing her for this exhibition.

Of course, Josie felt herself in motion, yet a certain emotion was stuck on replay, thinking of Sky's kiss.

Saturday, August 30, 2014

hopelessly devoted

hopelessly devoted

"So, what do I owe you?' Sky could tell Josie's mind was else where. She helped him clean up after dinner. He washed and rinsed and she sort of dried dishes.

"What?" She was all serious, pale and maybe even sad. It was hard to tell sometimes. Perhaps she had that thing down like Kristen Stewart where she always looked pissed about the world and everything in it. Still, he didn't hold it, against her.

"He's in jail. You, should be happy." Sky was referring to Derrick. Yes, he knew of her history with Derrick. They had a son together. Henry told him all about it one afternoon at the library. For about 15 minutes he was certain Josie was terribly crazy, but then he got over it and was glad he knew her now and not then. He thought they were friends.

"I guess." She sighed as if he was way off.

Sky scrubbed on a pan. Suddenly, it hit him. Dean.

"Did you hear from Dean?" He wanted to know.

"No." She sounded as if that would have been tragic.

"I thought you were going to write to him." Sky shrugged and went back to the soapy suds and pots and pans.

"I did." And it sounded like the worst thing she could have possibly done.

"Look," Sky didn't know where to start. He knew Dean meant well, but he was definitely lousy with long distance stuff. "He went into the Army. I mean, that keeps you crazy busy, you know."

She nodded as if she knew he was right.

"I was thinking about going to Oklahoma, you know, to his graduation." She finally announced.

"His graduation?" He squinted then. "Alone?"

She nodded as if it wouldn't be any trouble.

"Have you ever gone on a trip that far before, alone?" He festered a concerned look.

"I can do it." She got out her iPhone as if that was all she would need.

"What if..your car breaks down?" He rinsed another pot.

She only shrugged as if she'd figure it out.

"What if I go with you?" He said before he meant too. He'd never been that far from home in a decade or so.

She looked at him as if he might be defeating the purpose. He stared at her for a moment longer. It was time. He could feel the moment consuming him before it ever arrived. And when he kissed, he wanted her to know that he was ready to be there for her.