Tuesday, October 13, 2015

tell me a story

it's gonna be...

Mae hated packing. She'd never gone on a trip alone. Actually, she'd never really gone anywhere. She'd never mentioned this fact to anyone. Was she just a tree waiting for an accident?

Unlike Sadie who couldn't stay in any place very long..until now. She'd decided to go to rehab.

Of course, Mae would have to fly out to Las Vegas to pick up Caden. She now had custody of him.

It didn't seem real. A piece of paper was proof of the matter. She needed to pick up the child.

She squinted tears, thinking of those people referring to Caden as a thing. Well, maybe they weren't, but it felt like it to her.

Mae broke down in Audrey's tiny office and told her everything.

"Does this have to do with Jude?" Audrey wanted to know.

"It has nothing to do with Jude." Mae promised.

Still her head was heavy and her eyes burned, to drag up the past, that was just as good as forgotten.

"I'm a terrible person." That was really all Audrey needed to know.

"What are you talking about?"

It was like pulling teeth, to separate the truth from the lies.

"Its Ben.." She finally murmured. "We have a child." She wished she hadn't said it. Because it never felt so REAL until now. And she left it at that and said she had to leave for Las Vegas and Audrey only nodded.


Mae jerked open drawers in her room now, looking for underwear. Of course, she found all the frilly ones she hated to wear. They were like new, but she always felt fat in them. Her favorites were in the dirty clothes.

She made a face of distgust. She couldn't find a bra anywhere. Mae was so numb from the ordeal. She clutched her breasts, wondering if she was wearing a bra under her ribbed gray tank. Of course not.

Well, she was fine with that as she looked back at the suit case full of yoga pants and ribbed tanks. All she need was her old gray cardigan, and she would be fine.

There came a knock at the door. "Mae." It didn't sound like Ben. She went to answer to it.

"Mae, what did you do to Ben?"

"Nothing." She looked a little bewildered. She wasn't going to involve Ben in any of this. Even if Audrey told her she had too. She winced hard as if she might have a pain in her neck, but only in her mind.

"What's going on?" Taylor saw the suit case.

"I have to go to Los Vegas. I have ..to..get..my..nephew." Her frown was small. As it was, she didn't know if she could get to the airport on her own.


She sighed as if she hated to lie to him.

"Its really twisted. All right." She said very quickly. "My sister can either go to rehab ..or..jail..she's been neglecting..." She was engulfed with tears. She had to sit on the couch then. Reliving bit by bit. Thinking she'd done so much for her sister, and this was the thanks she'd get.

"What's wrong..what's really going on?"

"Why..why do you..have to sound so much..like Ben?" She winced more tears.

"Because, he wants to know. You know, he loves you." Taylor patted her on the back.

"He won't love me. He can't." She blinked tears.

She bit her thumb nail, deep in thought.

"I never even knew he had curly hair." She almost laughed, thinking everyone thought Caden had Karl's curly hair.  She shook her head, no.

Monday, October 12, 2015

all I ever needed

just don't know

"Where were you!' Ben couldn't believe Taylor could do this to  him. He'd been a nervous wreck. He didn't think he slept at all, but of course, he might have. There was drool on the couch pillow.

"Just at Sara's." He made it sound like it wasn't a big deal.

"Did you sleep with her?" Ben glared at him with his arms crossed. Of course, the livingroom was pretty much a pigsty. He'd finished off the potato chips, Oreo cookies and a gallon of milk. The empty remains were on the coffee table.

"Not..exactly." Taylor looked at the mess and grabbed the trash to get started, on cleaning up the mess.

"Well..either you did or you didn't?" Ben stared at him as if Taylor had a lot of explaining to do.

"You could have called Mae." Taylor told him that she would have came over or maybe he could have spent the night on her couch if he was that scared.

Ben shook his head, no. "She's mad at me. She doesn't want to talk to me." He did look rather grim about the matter. "I dunno what I did..but I did something." Hot tears surfaced. He was in a mess again, as he plopped down on the couch. His throat was raw. Maybe it was only a cold.

"Hey, buddy..it couldn't be that bad." Taylor sighed and put down the trash can. He went to console Ben by rubbing his shoulders.

"I dunno what I did, but I did something wrong. I think she's..she's leaving." He coughed tears. Taylor hugged him and let Ben practically snort on his hoodie.

"You, smell like an onion." Ben looked at him in distaste.

"We went to King Kong Burger." Taylor told him about there day at the zoo with Lily.

Ben sighed and looked at the mess he'd made on Taylor's shirt.

"Could..could..you just talk to her?" Ben kept even lipped.

"Sure, of course." Taylor nodded with a sigh. "But, you get this place cleaned up." Taylor gave him the eye. Ben needed to do his part of keeping up the place.

Ben only nodded.

Sunday, October 11, 2015

a little closer now

What is normal?

"Maybe..maybe..it would have been best..if it were just the two of us..that had gone to the zoo." Sara was rather somber after spending the day with Lily. They'd gone out for burgers and shakes, afterwards. Now she and Taylor were back at her place. Alone.

"No..no..it was good. Maybe Lily needs us." His smile was quaint.

"I didn't know it was actually that bad. You know, Charlie and Lily. I mean..what if..Charlie can't see what Lily sees..and you know, she'll always be stuck with somebody who is always going to put her down." Sara told him she'd had a happy childhood with her parents. "And I still have my issues."

They plopped in front of the TV with some hard cidars and she turned on Netflix to PEEP SHOW. Yet, she didn't find any fun in it.

"Oh..by the way, Lily really likes you." Sara's smile emerged as if he'd passed her course of the day at the zoo.

"No..no..its Barry she likes." Taylor chuckled as he put the bottle to his lips and drank.

"Why did I do this too myself?" Her feet were so tired, but it felt like peace to lean against Taylor, who put his arm around her.

She closed her eyes. He kissed the top of her head, told her she was a very good friend.

Well, she didn't want to be his friend, exactly.

She reached for him then. His lips met hers, and his lips were just as kissable as she thought they would be.

Saturday, October 10, 2015

we're all animals

We're all animals

"You, sure do talk about Barry ..a lot." Taylor mentioned to Lily who was busy petting a goat at the petting zoo. "Is that your boyfriend?"

"No!" She laughed at him.

 They looked up to see Sara being chased by a peacock. She'd gotten too close to take pictures of the mother peacock and her babies.

"You know, Barry." Lily told him. "He likes my mom."

"Really?" Taylor winced trying to put two and two together. "I thought..I thought..is that the guy your mom is going to marry?"

"No. I guess she'll have to marry the one she's with right now, and then maybe after that's done..she'll marry Barry." Lily was matter of fact, as if these kind of things took time. "But I can wait." She looked up at Taylor. "I guess."

They walked over to Sara. They were almost to the ski lift.

"So what's the deal with Charlie?" Taylor guessed it was the wrong time to put that question out there, but maybe Sara knew.

"What?" Sara looked at him as if he was not suppose to ask such questions, especially in front of Lily.

"Mommy used to be in jail." Lily told them both as they took her hand. Sara on the right. Taylor on Lily's left.

"That's sad." Taylor just said, wishing he could think of something better to say.

"She can't get a really good paying job now." Lily told them. "That's what Carson said."

"He told you this?" Sara pressed her lips tight.

"He's bad sometimes." Lily wasn't in much of a pout about it. "I mean, he thinks if she had a better job, they might be richer by now." Lily shrugged. "And he's pretty mad that Mom won't ask Daddy for money."

"Oh." Taylor and Sara said in unison. Thankfully, they were almost to the safari ride.