Sunday, May 24, 2015

moment to moment

Moment to Moment

Macy listened to Caitlin and Rico talk about their trip. They were going to the Texas Coast this summer. He was going to run a taco truck, and Caitlin was going to help.

"And you'll meet my old friends." He grinned from ear to ear as he held Caitlin's hands.

Macy was full of envy. They did look perfect together. Which was something she couldn't say about herself. Even things with Oz and Chandler were starting to look perfect.

Why hadn't she gotten the memo on this?

She felt stuck with Gage, who was constantly working. As if he was afraid the grocery store might forget about him while he was on his trip.

He was not that laid back dude, she recalled on first meeting. She kind of missed that guy.

Of course, he really knew how to get to her..when he wanted too. But he didn't seem to want it as much, these days.

Naturally, there love life was a work in progress.  Yes, he could kiss with the natural magic touch, but then he'd start talking about meeting Alec and how that was going to go. He was sure Halie would hate to see him. It would be toxic. He just wasn't sure he could handle it.

She didn't want to hear about that. She wanted to keep Dustin off her radar, too. She hadn't text him in so long. In fact, she'd blocked him.

And then the chance to meet him....

Oh God, it was a nightmare in her head. What if? What was going to happen if they met?

Trouble was stewing even if the weather was practically summer.

She longed for the beach, and a summer adventure that she was certain she wouldn't get with Gage.

The Boyfriend Tag - Gage & Macy

1. where did we meet?
Gage: Obviously, at work. The Grocery Store.
Macy: I had watched you all summer and you didn't even notice me. (Macy blinks as if he didn't notice her first. She hugs herself as if he's already blown the questions)
Gage: Not true. I just didn't want you to know that I had noticed you. (He gives her a look that she hasn't won this yet.)

2. what was our first date?
Gage: Was that a first date? (He winces hard as he looks at her) OK, we might not have gotten off to a great start. We just went out with some friends and it was this OPEN MIC night and she got up to DO her thing.
Macy: My thing? (Macy is in a pout)
Gage: Actually, it wasn't very funny, but then again, she did have a gay guy writing jokes for her. (He grits with a smile) OK..she was funny. Macy can be funny. (Macy sighs and hits him  on the arm. He fakes an OW.)

3. where was our first kiss and how was it?
Gage: Well, it was a great kiss. I knew it would be. I mean, the first time I ever saw her I knew I wanted to kiss her. It was just..I didn't know if..if I deserved somebody as amazing as Macy. I dunno, if I could even tell you where it was now. I mean..all I remember how glad I was that her lips had found mine.
Macy: (Macy smiles, even if she wants to hold back. She leans if he's finally gotten something right)

4. did u know that i was the one
Gage: could I not know? (He smiles giving her the eye and wraps his arms around her) It was right there in my gut..all along. But, sometimes..I can be my own worst enemy.
Macy: He's really a big teddy bear. He just doesn't want anyone to know. (She smiles)

5. first impression?
Gage: Macy is very chatty. And, she can be bossy. (He lightly laughs as he looks at her) But that didn't stop me from wanting to be in her life.
Macy: (she sighs, wanting him to be more serious. maybe.)

6. when did u meet the family
Gage: Well, I met her grandmother first. And that was really..really scary. I thought she might kill me. I mean, Macy was dealing a lot with her. Her parents weren't exactly in town. And well, I'm glad met her grandmother. I got to see all these little girl pictures of hers. So adorable. (he looks at Macy who only makes a face trying to concur his observation) Anyway, I finally did get to meet her parents and they actually like me. (Gage lightly laughs)
Macy: It was really tough for me, then. (She wraps an arm around Gage's arm) He did a lot for me. I mean, I was so ready to leave home, be on my own. There were times, she didn't even know me. And it was..really really scary, but Gage came through for me.

7. do we have a tradition
Gage: Not exactly. (Gage looks at Macy) I mean, I hope we always celebrate Halloween. Because, well..maybe that's our holiday. Still, I think we have a tradition everyday. I love getting a good night Text from her, every night. I like that the first Text I see in the morning is from her, too. Its the little things that mean a lot.
Macy: We just like hanging out. (Macy shrugs as if she doesn't need anything fancy)

8. what was our first roadtrip
Gage: Have we had one of those? (He looks at her) I mean, we want to travel this summer. See England. I..I hope we get a chance to do a few things on her own, but I dunno..with family and all there.
Macy: I dunno..If..if I even have to go anywhere with Gage. I just like doing nothing, you know. (She looks at him and gives him a quick smile)

9. who said i love u first and where were we
Gage: Oh man (He grins) It was me. I just thought I'd lost her for good, back on Halloween. I had to be honest, you know. I really think she makes me a better person, And she really makes me think, you know. About real love and well..she makes everything better in my life.
Macy: (Macy bites her bottom lip as if she might cry. Gage pulls a strand of her hair behind her ear and kisses her cheek. All is quiet)

10. what do we argue about the most
Gage: Well, this trip we have planned.
Macy: I just don't know if..if I should go or not. I mean, this is something he needs to do on his own.
Gage: But, Mace (He looks at her troubled) You know, I can't do this without you. I need you with me, to see my son. (Gage explains he has an almost year old son in England) His mother is with someone else now. I mean, I just don't want to get into IT with her, you know. And well, it'll be more balanced. I think. You know, She has her partner. I have mine. I want it to work, but I'm just afraid SOMEONE is not going to be open to this. I don't want to fight with Halie. I mean, that's the last thing the kid needs to know about his OLD MAN. He liked to pick fights with his mother. (He sighs as if it will be no vacation for him in England)
 (Macy apologizes  and wants to move on to the next question.)

11. who wears the pants in the relationship
Gage: She does.
Macy: He does.

12. if im sitting in front of the tv what am i watching
Gage: The Inbetweeners. She claims she only watches crime shows, but its British humor that gets to her every-time.
Macy: (She nods.)

13. what dressing do i get on my salad
Gage: Dorthy Lynch which is this mid-western salad dressing ..that's like pouring sugar on your salad. Except it orange but not French dressing.
Macy: (Macy makes a face of disgusts but agrees)

14. whats the one food dont i like
Gage: Cantaloupe. She got sick on it when she was like Five and now it just makes her want to throw up.
Macy: I ate like the whole thing at this family reunion. It was awful (She snarls her nose.)

15. we go out to eat what do i get to drink
Gage: Water.
Macy: I have to have my water. (Claims its the best thing for her complexion)

16. what size shoe do i wear
Gage: Actually, her feet are big, Size 8
Macy: You're feet are small.

17. if i was collecting anything what would it be
Gage: Trolls. She has like a room full of them.
Macy: I'm going through a lot of them to get rid of.

18. what is my favorite type of sandwich
Gage: Peanut-butter and bananas on toast

19. what would i eat everyday if i could
Gage: Cold ravioli from a can.
Macy: I was raised on that stuff. (She gives him the eye)

20. what's my fav cereal
Gage: LIFE
Macy: Sometimes, Rice Chex

21. what is my fav music
Gage: She likes these old singers like Patsy Cline and Loretta Lynn
Macy: My grandmother knows all her songs by heart

22. whats my fav sports team

23. what is my eye color
Gage: Hazel
Macy: (She shrugs)

24. who is my best friend
Gage: I am.
Macy: Of course. (She hugs herself)

25. what is something that I do that you don`t like
Gage: I love everything about you. (He smiles)
Macy: Good answer. (She pinches his cheek)
Gage: That might be one of the things I don't like about you. (He fakes a moment of pain)

Saturday, May 23, 2015

onward and upward


Josie met her soon to be step-brother, who was living with her father in Chicago. Maybe her Dad would marry Chad's mother. Chad seemed pretty content with the situation, and her Dad was smiling as if he'd been the best influence in her life.

She tried not to dwell on that. She really wanted to forget everything with her Dad, and his pompous attitude. But as she thought back on it now, she might take after him. She knew she hated that about herself.

Maybe she should have been there for Henry. Who knew..Henry might fall in love with her step-brother. But then again, Chad was only here for the weekend.

Naturally, when the time came at graduation, she went over and gave Henry a hug. Asked if he was doing OK.

"Never better." A kiss on the cheek. He said he was going to work at the library full time.

"Great." She smiled back, wondering how that happened. Something, about someone retiring. It wasn't like he'd be head of anything. It was a full time job in circulation and he'd be taking some courses on his own to be fully accredited. "At least I'll have insurance."

Funny, how something like that would make him happy. She thought he wanted to design clothes, see the world, not be stuck in an old library that needed a new roof.

"Congratulation." She smiled back, thinking this was the first day of the rest of her life, and she was going to see her friend in England.

Of course, She'd see Ian and his family. For the first time, this crushed her. She'd been to Halie's before, but it would be so different this time. In fact, everything was different. Even Henry.


Leo thought how formal the long morning began. All the relatives, stuck in nose bleed seats in the gym. It was cloudy and gray. He expected rain, but it never came. Only the humid perspiration lingered.

He was so happy to get out of the graduation gown. He'd thrown his cap in the air with the others, and then he saw Henry standing there in the plush grass in front of the high school.

"Well, looks like we made it." Henry reached for his hand first. Of course, it was Garvin who captured it on camera.

Leo could hardly make small talk, but he made an effort to introduce Henry to Sal. It wasn't but a second, but Garvin got a shot of that too.

"I don't think you're really over Henry." Garvin said later while they were at Leo's parents back yard cookout.

"I want it to be." Still, he was glad to know Henry when he did, but things were solid with Sal. "I'm happy you're kind of family." Leo admitted.

"Yeah, kind of." Garvin chuckled.

Leo wondered if Garvin was serious about his sister. He might never know, but he could keep praying they weren't.

some would say

Derrick didn't sit with Josie's family. It felt so awkward to see Josie's Dad, but here he was holding on to Aasha and freedom. No more ankle bracelet. Thankfully, Rossie went with him. He was happy to be at his old school. He'd talked a little with old teachers. They'd remembered his sister Amanda, who taught school there before she was killed her own home.

 They mentioned what a fine music teacher she was.

"Are you thinking about music?" His music teacher remembered him.

"No." He shook his head. Thinking it would take a lot patience to be a music teacher.

"But, you're such a natural." And then his old teacher said something that stuck with him. "If you can't do it for yourself..then do it for your sister."

It made him a bit weepy, but soon enough Camille was moving them along to the place where she'd made reservations for them to eat, after Josie's high school graduation. Camille said it was paid for, so they better come to lunch.

Derrick smiled and took Rossie's hand. After all, they were family.

Friday, May 22, 2015

maybe I need this

mother to mother

Camille hoped she lived through this.

Open house for Josie and Graduation from High School. Josie's father was here with a new girlfriend. Naturally, she was glad to be away even for a few minutes to Henry's house.

She talked to Henry's Mom when she brought over a casserole.

"I thought Josie would have been there." His mother mentioned. Henry's mom pointed out how close they'd been lately. Inseparable.

"Oh, her father came in for the graduation and brought along his girlfriend and her family." Camille sighed as if she were OK with it, but there was a lot going on for Josie.

Honestly, Camille didn't think she'd have this much company.  It was a little strange, and yet her ex hadn't changed much. He was still expecting to be waited on, but she'd left them to their own devices. She really didn't have time to entertain.

"Of course." Henry's mother pressed her lips tight, but Camille could see Josie must have let down Henry.

They chatted a bit about graduation. Henry wasn't up for a party. It was going to be very low-key. Henry's family would go out to dinner.

"Maybe, he'll feel up to going to a party. Maybe..he..and Josie..."

Camille hoped Josie would be there for Henry, who wasn't stuck on bed rest. In fact, he was going to work the day of graduation, in the afternoon.

right on track

"Are you sure, you're up for work?" Vada looked at Henry who was going through his closet, looking for his summer clothes. He'd found the pale chinos he couldn't live without.  She actually thought he was  a little hyper.

"Yeah." Henry looked at her a bit bitter. It was as if graduation was already over. He didn't have time to think about it. He'd be at work by one. "You know, they need me."

"I think you need to rest. Don't you need time to..uh..get used to this you." Vada sounded as if she was talking about cyborg ware.

"Oh, its nothing. I keep a magnet in my pocket. I feel a seizure coming on..then I swipe it..and I'm good to go." He said ever so quickly about his epilepsy. "Besides, I feel my best when I'm at the library."

He sounded as if he had it all solved.

a little thing like Sophie

Leo didn't know about the baby.

Suddenly, it was as if he were in the middle of something. Maybe Sal wasn't going with him to New York, after all.

Oddly, his parents had been open about his trip. They were happy for him. Sal too. They did like Sal. They thought he was the best thing to happen to Leo.

"I just thought my grandmother would..would keep her." Sal looked so let down. "I guess that was asking for too much." After all, they'd be gone for the next 3 months or so.

"Who knows, we might be back in a couple of weeks." Leo sighed wondering if his Mom could do it, but he hated to ask.

So he went to Maggie first. After all, she was packing up. She'd found her own place. Garvin was over to help her move.

"I doubt you could do it, but..."

Well, he let Sal do the talking.

Yes, he had a daughter and she was three years old, and he loved  Sophie very much, but taking her to New York would be just too much.

"It wouldn't be forever. I mean, once I figure this out..We could be together." Sal didn't mean to impose.

"Oh." By Maggie's look, Leo was afraid that was a NO, but she looked over at Leo. "Maybe..maybe we need to meet first."

possible changes

"Are you serious?" Garvin looked at Maggie as if this was crazy. "You're moving into your own place. Now, with a baby?"

"I didn't say yes." She looked at him as if he were jumping ahead.

"Oh, but you will." He knew her even if they only went on their little roadtrips on the weekends.  Always congenial and happy to listen to what he might have to say about this eatery or that apple orchard. "You can't say no."

"It won't be forever." She shrugged with her slim fingers in the back pockets of her jeans.

He'd never seen her in jeans before. It was like she was not the girl he knew who wore old dresses and vintage shoes.

"All right." He sighed, and in the next breath he said he would help her.

"OK, we'll see about that." But she reminded him he'd be busy with weddings. Even graduations.

Thursday, May 21, 2015

trying for tomorrow

trying for tomorrow

Henry wished his mind wasn't like this. He couldn't figure this out, soon enough.

Maybe, it was best if Josie did stay mad at him. A part of him believed he wasn't good for anyone.

It was true, he made everyone miserable. Especially, himself.

It was hard to see where the future might take him, but he knew he needed to get a handle on his life, first.

At least, he still had his job.

He tried to think back on the fantasy of being in Paris, all on his own. He'd meet someone exotic and his life would be so amazing. Yet, it felt like a selfish endeavor. But the truth was, he was selfish. Even with Josie.

It gave him a sick feeling inside. The idea of having a life with Josie.

What was wrong with him?

Well, he didn't have long to think about it. The bright room went dim and music was playing, as they wheeled him into surgery. He thought for a second he was in the wrong place and then they put him out of his misery and went to work on making his life better. He guessed.

But he couldn't imagine it better. Not without Josie. Henry was pretty sure she was done with him.

When he got back to his hospital room, there was his brother, his father and his mom. No Josie.

He thought he was going to be sick. She wasn't here. She was suppose to be here. But he knew he had to learn the instructions to this new apparatus that was going to make life so normal. Only Henry didn't know what normal was. He wasn't sure he liked normal, anyway.