Wednesday, March 11, 2009

just not OK


Eric left Ellie a message which felt kind of strange to him. He thought she'd be at home, but she wasn't.


He felt like shit, anyway. He couldn't say what was wrong. A shower hadn't helped. His head was throbbing. Perhaps it was his body. He laid down as if he had nothing else better to do.


His eyes tensed. Really, he couldn't stop thinking about Olivia. If this was what she wanted, there was nothing he could do to prevent it. After all, she was just someone.


No, he had feelings for this someone. Real. Feelings. They swallowed him whole and left him speechless. Perhaps.


What was she doing right now? It was just a party.


But he knew from Olivia that this Molly did things with guys. A blind girl, at that. Doing things. Nasty things.


"Jesus!" He got himself up. What if this girl was showing Olivia how to give a blow job.


Eric blinked. She wouldn't. Not Olivia.


He felt himself shake into tears. He let out a sigh. Tears dripped down his face. She was so not that. What if they forced her into something she didn't even know what to do. The horror just stunned him.


Eric choked for air.


His cell rang then. He picked it up on the first ring. It was Ellie.


"Something came up," she just said rather mysteriously.


"OK," he managed. "Are you sick?"


"Maybe."


"Sorry." He swallowed back the flem in his mouth.


"Me to." She didn't say much else, and he didn't ask.


"Look, I have this friend I have to see," Eric said.


"OK." Ellie's voice seemed so distant.


"OK." He left it at that. It was an odd way to say goodbye, but Olivia was finally texting him.


Olivia: i hate it. boring. loud music and the TV going. everybody hates me.

9 comments:

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  2. Dude, I'd be afraid of the same thing...

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  3. Okay, so lots to catch up on! I'll start :-)
    In "a cold mother", the first paragraph where Eric was deciding whether first tocheck on Ellie or Olivia really shocked me. It's like he really has got two girlfriends now. It's scary how worried he is about Olivia. Now I'm worried too.

    Olivia at that party... You know, I'm worried too. Molly seems what they call a "bad lot". And if she only knew (olivia) HOW Eric worries!

    And poor Ellie. I never noticed the change in her because I went along with her all the way, but now it's contrasted, it's evident to me how much she has changed.

    I really think Eric should decide between Ellie and Olivia, or at least make clear to one (or both) of them that he only wanted to be friends. I think he should choose Olivia, you know, somehow he is too "over" Ellie, if you know what I mean. ... And that text from Olivia.. I wonder.

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  4. im feeling sorta iffy about eric.

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  5. This was so well written. It made me realize completely Eric's feelings... I'm sorry he seems so lost and confused.

    Damn I love this story :)

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  6. I do so love that pic of Nic. Aw, Eric. I do think he's a good guy. No matter what.

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  7. hard to say who was the bigest liar.

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  8. I think Eric's doing the right thing.

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  9. Hi there-Poor Olivia, she definitely needs Erics help.

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