She'd made plans with the girls at work that she never did anything with. They were going to see Cursive. A local favorite. And with a little determination and hopefully with complete coolness, she'd get the task done without a glitch.
"So you don't need to go." Olivia told Roger point blank when she told him about the concert. "Besides, its a girl thing."
"Really?" He'd looked at her puzzled but didn't question her. "All right, I'll be home all by my lonesome. Hopefully, lawn boy will change his mind and hitch a ride with El. So if you need me, you'll know where I'll be."
"But I won't need you," she just smiled feeling a bit sad about saying it as if it would be a thrill to be without him when she knew it really wouldn't, and his smile was faint as if she'd just given him a lump of something he couldn't swallow. She knew deep down that he loved to be needed. Well, at the moment, but come fall, she was sure to lose him by then. He'd be lost in his classes, guys he adored. Yes, it was better to saver this right now before it became a bore. And it would, sooner or later, and she couldn't wait for him to have that feeling first. She just wouldn't. Not now.
Olivia went home and had a good cry. It felt like a crime to prepare for and really she wasn't criminal minded. But the fact remained, she couldn't go another year not really being of this world. She thought she could do it. She'd planned on it or so it seemed. She thought it might change, being with Eric, but it hadn't. Really, she hated him sometimes for being so righteous. What was wrong with him? What was wrong with her?
Something was wrong. She was sure of it. And if this didn't happen soon then maybe she didn't belong anywhere, really.