Sunday, March 11, 2012
I want to know
"You could think about being a Junior Friend," Ian said to Henry. "I'm sorry you didn't get an interview about the shelving position." He was sliding the mysteries in place against the back wall of the library. "They kind of like that on your application. Volunteering."
"I'll remember that." Henry nodded.
"You want me to get you an application?" Ian asked then.
"I dunno. Maybe I'll wait. Closer to summer." Henry shrugged as he pushed his hands in to the pockets of his kakis, then turned to look at a title of a book. He had his back to Ian.
"Anything else?" Ian looked at him out of the corner of his eye.
"Kind of." Henry took his time. "I know..you used to date. Well, everybody knows you and Derrick were together."
"And?" Ian looked at him blankly.
"What's he like? Really?" Henry asked.
"Look, I saw you two at the Valentines dance." Ian sighed, with almost a laugh. "I can't believe you're even asking."
"You're..you're so self-assured and all. I-I never really knew who broke up, with who, you know." Henry sounded as if he hated this talk.
"He's.." Ian didn't want to be too hard on Derrick. "He's Derrick. Moody. Funny. Miserable. I guess you really like him, huh?"
"Yeah. I do." Henry sighed as if he might fall apart in the process.
"He's going through, something right now. I'm sure..if..if you give it time..you'll get through it. He will, too." Ian decided to say.
"But what if I don't say the right thing, or..I dunno. I'm just not experienced-" His voice cracked then.
"Just be you. You'll do fine." Ian tried his best not to fake a smile, but it wasn't easy talking about someone who dropped him like a rock. It could happen to Henry too. But Ian didn't want to be negative. Ian went back to work.
Still, it bothered Ian that Derrick was so cold. They might never talk, again. They were friends once. Ian was certain, that might not ever happen.