Sunday, June 25, 2017

brother to brother

brother to brother

"I really wish you'd told me this, sooner." Xander didn't mean to be so disgruntled, but getting his brother Simon to go out with him lately, was like a dreadful trip to the dentist. Simon was not his old happy self. Of course, he always thought Simon was following his girlfriend Bree's lead for the most part.

At least, he met up at the outlet mall with him to go shopping for their Dad's birthhday.

"Well, its..really not a big deal." Simon kept stirring his smoothie.

"Not a big deal?" Xander looked at him blankly. "If you can't..just ask her..what's going on..then..I'd break up with her."

Simon didn't like the sound of that. He shook his head, no.

"Do you like Ivy?" Xander wanted to know.

"She's..she's easy too." Simon almost stuttered. "I mean, I..I hadn't planned on talking about it. But, it was the end of school..and it was just the two of us, that met up. Bree and Randy bailed."

" make it sound, as if they... are up to something." Xander tilted his head with a slight smirk.

Simon sighed as if he'd already let it go.

"We, we went to a movie..since then..and I..I guess..we're OK." Simon spoke of Bree, as he nursed his bottom lip.

"You guess?" Xander wanted to be helpful. He wanted to know what to do. Especially, when there was Sunny to worry about, when it came to dating. "I dunno. If you want to break up, then you really should. What if this kind of thing, gets worse? Can you live with that?"

"I know." Simon looked at him, ever so serious.

Xander knew it was only high school. "You've got one more year. Maybe, its time, to just enjoy it for you. You know, taking the classes that might help you decide what you want to do, when you start college. Maybe, you should be in theater. Make it a great Senior year. You, don't have to be, just Bree's boyfriend."

Saturday, June 24, 2017

never again is what you said the time before

never again is what you said the time before

Louis was in charge now. Wasn't that all he ever wanted? He wasn't so sure, anymore.

True, he finally figured out why Callum counted on him so much. Callum was the worst when it came to decisions, and yet who had handed him over the company.

"If I don't..I might as well go bankrupt." Callum assured him that it wouldn't happen if Louis made the decisions.

Besides, Callum was going through his own problems. Sometimes, Louis had no idea who his best friend was. Yet somehow, life prevailed.

Funny, how know one remembered he grew up here in this mid-west small town. He was just that guy from California. Perhaps, he wanted to keep it that way. Maybe it was best to be the outsider. Therefore, people would listen because after all, didn't everyone want to get out to L.A. where they could make it really big in the celebrity world?

But here he was, away from the big time rush (so to speak) and it was good to be where the economy was OK and everyone seemed quite honest. And he knew Ellis had been competent enough, just as Callum promised. Still, he wasn't so sure he trusted him.

Of course, with this summer starting off, hopefully with a bang, Louis had never felt so alone. It was as if everyone was out there, doing their thing. And here he was manning the phones..and keeping an eye on his sister.

"Don't go messing with the merchandise." He'd told her early on. Besides that, she was on her own. She could find her own place. He was so tired having to keep up with her. Naturally, she was the other reason he moved here. Nobody wanted her around, where they'd come from.

So many times, she'd been close to jail-time from  all the heavy duty partying she'd done. This was her last chance. He reminded her of this everyday. Hopefully, she was listening.

Friday, June 23, 2017

no love lost

no love lost

"Are you sure? You're going to be OK?"

Ellis watched Geo's lips move. Honestly, he didn't know if he heard him correctly. There was enough on his mind to make him hurl these days, but he didn't because he worked as hard as he could with the director, Louis..because he knew Callum would want him, too.

"What are you saying?" Ellis wished Geo would leave him alone, but here he was down at the studio, just as they were finally taking a break for a late dinner.

"I never get to see you anymore." Geo shrugged.

"That's're always with..with..what's her name?" Ellis gave him the eye, as if there was no need for them to talk, anymore.

"Melissa." It wasn't a question. Geo moved in with her.

Ellis sighed, thinking he lived in an entire different universe than Geo. It didn't matter if Geo took over Ellis' job at the funeral home. He was one of them, now. Ellis should have figured it out before now. Geo couldn't go solo, on anything.

"I'm fine." Perhaps, Ellis sounded bitter, but he needed to remember he was going forward. He wanted this life, being a real musician. However, he'd never lived on the road before. He didn't even know what to pack. Still, he was fine.

His work relationship was all he needed. He worked well with Louis, and he'd stopped asking about Callum.

Perhaps, that was the hole in his heart. He did his best not to let himself wonder what happened to him.

If only he'd get a call...a text. Yet as the days trudged on with the long hours of music, Ellis knew now, he must not have meant much to Callum..anyway.

Thursday, June 22, 2017

this is not enough

this is not enough

Natalie couldn't stop herself from thinking about Joon, lately. Especially, when she was waiting for Kramer.

She didn't mean for it to happen, but it was better to think about all those talks with Joon.. than to be furious with Kramer.

If he only knew just how mad she could get, but once Kramer arrived, all smiles and ready to take her anywhere..she would play right along.

But that had changed with Joon around. She wasn't so happy to see Kramer, anymore. Although, it was quite an act to play along with him.

She tried to explain this to Holly, but of course..Holly's mind was elsewhere. Not so much about her boyfriend's ex who had a baby, but the future with Dustin. Could she possible go back to England with him for a couple of weeks of summer vacation?

Of course, it always came back to the fact that they both had to work.

"Why don't you work, Natalie?" Holly would look a bit disgruntled at Natalie, as if they weren't the best of friends, after all.

Natalie never had much to say about herself. Her grandmother had raised her and always wanted her to think about her education. That was her work. And a little volunteering, here and there. Natalie was certain Holly didn't want to hear of this. After all, Holly was not close to her own family.

Still, it felt like a play to Natalie, and she wasn't even a drama major. Yet, she was part of the supporting cast. Always there to be the supportive girlfriend and best friend.

Yet, little dizzy thoughts would rush back to Joon. She liked to watch his many funny faces. Yes, she'd even admitted to her grandmother (on their Sunday night phone calls) she liked to watch him eat.

"Then what are you doing with Kramer?" Her grandmother's question stung her deep.

Maybe it was the idea of sticking with the tried and true. Or Natalie didn't want to think anything was broken with Kramer. She would have to stop thinking about Joon.