what happened to us

Dear Diary,

Well, Eric and I haven't had a fight yet. Somehow, I can feel it coming.

We're good when we're together. There's so much that I can't get enough of when I'm with him. Alone. But then he's been acting mad when he's around everyone else. I don't know what it could be.

All right, granted being kissed by Dylan could set you off. But I don't think Dylan kissed him anywhere near the way he caught me off guard. I'm not mad at Eric. I'm not that mad at Dylan, either. I know I should be, but Dylan is Dylan and well, just taking him in small doses is enough for me. And maybe Cory will get this all figured out with him and well, Dylan will settle down. Wishful thinking.

But I just can't quite get to the core of this problem with Eric. Is it school? His future? Or just me?

I think we are so happy. But what if we're not. What if too much has happened too soon? What if we'd waited? You know, the sex part. Could we have waited?

Should we just work on the girlfriend/boyfriend stuff? You know, hold off on anymore one nighters and quicky events.

I don't know.

It makes me ill to think about it. Because I want to be with him. In spite of the Nick Jonas dream. Which still makes me laugh when I think about it.

THANK GOD.....

I have not had a dream about Kyle. I would really freak then.

He seems over Roxie. Maybe he's just covering up. He should be thankful, Joan let him go to Homecoming. He and Nick had so much fun dancing with all these girls.

Fun.

Thats what I need more of. And I'm not sure if Eric is fun at all, lately. All these things I'm finding out he HATES.

What is going on?

Later,

L