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Dear Diary,

I have 2 fantastic things to be happy about.

1. I got a car. Its not really new, but its cute. A little PT Cruiser. Its white. Its dependable. Its mine.

2. they want to keep me at the store. Yeah! I can't believe it, but I'm reliable, and one of the best with customer service.

Now for the worst 2 things to worry about.

1. breaking up with Eric.

2. staying away from Elliot.

I don't know what to do. Exactly. First I have to confess everything to Eric who might dump me right then and there. And he should. If that's the way it goes. Or I just decide its time we let this go. I don't really want to, but then maybe I do. I feel like I'm there for him... than he's ever there for me. Always calling me. Always me coming over. I mean, is that the way it is? I don't want to lose him. But maybe he's asking too much of me, you know. And maybe we could just take a break. Perhaps. Maybe less is more. Something like that.

And....I hope Elliot can work this out with Dora. I don't think I could if I were him. You know, I wouldn't want to be in something so complex. Perhaps I like things simple. Maybe he does too, he just hasn't figured that out yet.

I'm going to be strong. Really. I am. Not going worry about this. I'm not going to let Eric make me feel bad. Not going to wait for Elliot to call. I'm just not.

God, I just wish that was easier said than done.

Later,

L