Saturday, August 25, 2012
its only normal
Milo guessed he'd made a friend this summer. But he wasn't as certain of it as Audrey was.
"There's your friend." Audrey always had these little sing song ways of teasing him.
"She just needs books for bible school." First it was vacation bible school. Stuff for little kids. Quinn talked about Bible college off and on. How she was going to spend some time in Mexico. Mainly, Milo listened. She never asked him if he were religious or not, but she talked about her trip to North Dakota over the summer. Still, he was pleasant enough. Perhaps, it was because she was so pleasant.
Now she wanted books on psychology.
"Did you change your major or something?" The subject was so vague. He wasn't exactly sure what she was looking for, but he squeezed down the rows of books in his wheel chair.
"I dunno what I'm gonna do." She wasn't her happy self. The one that was going to change the world with just one smile. Now she looked as if she were lost.
"That happens." He nodded as if he understood. "You can't expect to know everything before you go to college."
"Its not that." She hugged herself as if she might be mad at one particular person, herself. "I may have..have made someone gay."
Milo looked up at her. "I seriously doubt that." He couldn't help but smile.
"No, no its true. If I'd been more considerate. Let him talk more. Did things he wanted to do." She cringed bitterly then. "If..if I'd only known what to do."
"I know you don't want to hear about this, but it possibly wasn't about you, at all." Milo shrugged. "Its not always about you. You know, when..when things fall apart." Milo sighed.
"Its just..I..I can't let this happen again." She was serious. "I can't keep doing the wrong things, you know." Her eyes were a little glassy. "I just wish he could have told me..."
"Evidently, he did tell you something." Milo reminded her.
"Yeah, sort of." She sighed. "I don't even know where he is. I didn't tell his parents, what I know." She nursed her bottom lip. "Its like I had all this faith, and now..it just feels so artificial."