what could it possibly mean

Henry felt as if he were in limbo, of some kind. There was a lot on his mind.

1. he felt really bad that he wasn't there for Josie more. He'd been so excited about a baby shower and all that came with her having a baby, but she hadn't wanted to celebrate anything, and he felt he had to be mellow around her.

2. what was the point of getting Shan a phone? He never texted nor called. He wasn't sure he was even in the friend zone with him. Lately.

"Well, maybe Shan don't do text." Audrey teased about it. But Henry didn't think it funny. Especially, there at the front desk at the library.

"We live on the same street. And I never see him." Henry felt a new all time low. He didn't want to be caught up in Shan's mystery, but he was.

"Hey, you're a good friend. You really are. He knows that." Audrey didn't cheer him much though. He didn't want to be Shan's friend. He couldn't stop thinking about him. But it was clear, Shan wasn't thinking about him. Henry didn't want to be demanding, but it would be nice if he wasn't the one who had to do everything in this maybe relationship. Of course, they hadn't exactly been intimate, anyway. Other than, Shan borrowing his clothes for something he wouldn't tell him about. Now it was as if it were only a passing moment. Maybe even not that. Yet, he hadn't washed the shirt Shan borrowed, from the first time they went out. He kept it in his undie drawer and pulled it out from time to time just to breathe in Shan's scent.

Henry was going to do his best to not think about Shan, and he was, but then Shan showed up at the library.

"Hey," He brought the library book back. It was a few days late, but still within the grace days. "And I told myself I was going to come in..everyday..I probably owe something on it. Sorry." He was even lipped, but gazed at Henry as if something was on his mind. Maybe Henry.

Henry tried not to smile. He wanted to be just as serious as Shan could be.

"I've been really busy." Shan shrugged. "I got that job at the movie theater."

"Really? Why didn't you tell me?" Henry asked.

"Its been kind of a headache. I mean, I've had all these hours, cause people are getting ready for college, or last minute trips. I needed the money." He told him.

"How are you getting there? I could have.."

"God, I didn't want to be a bother. You're friend had her baby, right?" Shan asked.

Henry nodded.

"See, I bet you were even there in the delivery room." Shan's smile was sly.

"No, I was not there." Henry sighed thinking he was more in the way now, than helping. "A guy..I used to see..its his kid."

Shan nodded as if he didn't want to say anymore. Henry got down to the business of the library book. He promised Shan he didn't owe anything.

Shan pushed away from the desk ready to go, but then he leaned in.

"Oh..yeah, there is this thing...I might need your help with." Shan shrugged with a sigh, as if he'd completely forgot, until now.

"Like what?" Henry winced.

"Its kind of a roadtrip." Henry could see Shan was going way out of his way, not for him to dare think it would ever be a date. "I need a ride to get my car."

"How far are we talking about?" Henry wanted to know.

"Not that far. Its just, my dad's being a pain, and he keeps putting me off. But it would make things a lot easier if I had it. Its at my Mom's." He shrugged as if it wasn't a big deal.

"I guess so." Henry wasn't sure what to expect.

"Good, cause my friend Lily wants to meet you." His smile was a little silly which surprised Henry, who had no idea Shan did silly.

Henry bit his bottom lip, wondering what that could mean.