Friday, November 2, 2012
Lions, Tigers and nightmares
Daisy felt the lump in her throat like a dagger. She could hardly gasp as she re-read the instructions to what she'd have to do. If she wanted to get out of this mess.
Derrick's leg bounced nervously as he sat in the chair next to her. This needed to be done. He didn't want to be at Planned Parenthood anymore than she did.
"I care about my brother." He sighed as if he might crumble in the chair.
Daisy guessed most people went through similar situations when they were here. But this was the morning after pill. It would work up to five days after unprotected sex.
"So I care about ..you..too." He winced as if she must have thought he was the monster in all this. But he was the one who drove her down to Planned Parenthood to get checked out.
They'd had to answer a quiz, about all sorts of different kinds of sexual activity. Daisy felt like a newbie. It was a vocabulary she wasn't accustom, too. She wasn't even sure she wanted to know all the definitions.
"But..but.." She felt like a fool now. Yes, she'd been drinking a lot of tequila. Somehow, she tolerated it. Of course, Cedric was the only one she wanted. Except, it never turned out that simple. Someone was always in the way. And when Derrick found her last night, she was good as gone, already. She didn't remember anything.
She couldn't imagine having sex, but evidently, she'd had sex with someone. Of course, after the exam she'd felt violated, even if she knew the practitioner was only trying to help.
"Remember, you have to help yourself. Its up to you to plan when you want to start a family." The Hispanic woman reminded her after she filled out the information form. Daisy, gave her a go to hell look. It was hard to get out of this self loathing funk she was in.
Max didn't want to have fun anymore. Yet, this was not the perfect answer, either.
"What happen to you, man?" Derrick was in a fret. "You two were as good as gold, you know. Good as gold and..you..you fucked it up." He squinted. "Sorry, but..you know, Max's the best. And you ..you were like his anchor. I thought."
"All right, he deserves better..."
"Shut up." He snapped. "We're getting this fixed. You, are gonna be ..what he needs. Got it."
She tried to breathe, but it was hard. Daisy didn't know she had a good thing with Max until she lost it.
Daisy read the directions again. She hated the thought of getting sick.
"Look, you don't remember. I don't remember." He reminded her.
Even so, she wasn't sure what they'd done could completely vanish, like he promised.