Friday, June 20, 2014

a goodbye

A Goodbye

in this land of strangers
there are dangers
there are sorrows
i can't see this lady
it is shady
i am leaving tomorrow

even there's a reason
it's silver
it's gone
in this land of strangers
there are dangers
there are sorrows
sorrows- the pixies

Dean did his best to say his good-byes. It was just bootcamp, after all. Gage certainly played it down.

"What's the big deal?" He smirked as if he might be a Marine one day, and the Army would be a piece of cake.

Dean didn't feel like Gage was his best friend, anymore. He closed his eyes tight and thought of Vada. He hoped he wasn't too bad. But the idea of what an awful person he was swallowed him like a bitter pill. She was family.

But he'd always loved her. He always would. And a part of him wanted the two of them to start their own family. He wanted her to be all he needed.

Except, as he was packing it in, it was Josie who showed up last minute. He stood there, shocked, but not quite awed. Not knowing what to say, but she hugged him tight as if she wanted to be with him these last few minutes.

In the end, it was  Ren and Josie who went with him to say good-bye.

Dean was quiet on the ride. He held Josie's hand, and it felt amazing that she still wanted him in her life.

"I don't want it to end this way." He finally sighed.

"You know, I'll always love you." She sniffed through soft tears. "Don't hate me for that."

He didn't know if he wanted to laugh or just cry with her.

"I really think ..there is a whole lot more to you, than you even know." He told her ever so sad. "I know I'm going to miss you. I don't want too. I mean, you really made my senior year the best. I was grateful to just..just to know you." He found himself babbling. There was a thought to tell her everything. About Vada. How he'd spent the night with her, but he knew it was best to leave it, that Josie had been a best friend he'd always needed .

By the time they got to the hotel, he felt as if they were inseparable, but it was time to go. He felt like a prisoner of some kind. After all, the United States Government owned him. But Josie kept hanging on.

And he wasn't going to kiss her, but of course, she had to at least give him something to remember. A slow lingering kiss to let him know he would be missed.


cat eyes & skinny jeans said...

Such a heartbreaking time.


ivy said...

So sad for them both.

Launna said...

Oh my... this was sad...