Ben was trying to wrap his head around all of it. But then his head got stuffed up from being up in the air, and he thought his hearing might be going and his heart too.
At least, Mae let him go with her. He looked across the isle and was glad Taylor and Sara could come too. Sara made a deal on their tickets. It was a steal, Sara told them. Mae was thakful, at the moment, Ben just wanted to see what the little boy looked like.
"You, don't even know?" He'd winced when she finally acknowledge the existence of this human being that he was somehow connected too. Oh, he'd always felt it, but he couldn't explain it.
Of course, Mae was not going to say anything now.
They'd had maybe..maybe five minutes to talk about it. Now he was in limbo, like a balloon head rising above the clouds.
If Mae only answer a few questions.
But at least they were sitting next to each other.
Mae said he used have a shaved head.
"I didn't even recognize you when you started volunteering at the library." She said it so bitter, that she wished she'd never known.
"Well, then how did you figure it out?" He'd asked, back at her place when Taylor was there, as a buffer.
"I wrote your name down." She looked at him as if it wasn't that big of a deal.
He wanted to tell her she was wrong. He could not have been a father to anyone.
"According to my Mom. I'm gay." He shrugged.
"Well, you were definitely not gay." She rolled her eyes at that. "Evidently, your mother doesn't know everything."
She'd been cross then. Now Mae looked as if she was getting over the flu.
He had to remember, Mae kept this a secret from everyone. And it hurt. He did feel a little sad inside. Maybe even hate, but he couldn't hate her. He wouldn't.
He reached out to hold her hand. He was sure of it now. She'd never let anyone hold her hand.