all alone

There were so many things Kevin didn't like about himself. No way, could he actually be a good person. Of course, he resented his father, thinking for so long it was all his fault. But now he wasn't so sure.

It was hard to be alone, and yet maybe he was beginning to like it. There was plenty of time to read and watch all the American movies he'd wished all these years to watch. And yet he found that boring too.

He could see he wasn't the most pleasant person to be around. Things were on thin ice with Xander, and they weren't even related. Now, he was going to ruin it with Dakota, too.

"Is the pool even opened?" He texted Dakota about twenty minutes later after he got home. He didn't want her to give up on him, and yet he couldn't let her know that he needed her in his life.

She told him it would be open tomorrow.

Kevin plopped himself on the couch and stared at the text on his phone while he nursed his bottom lip. He felt they were family. After all, she'd been like a grand-daughter to his mother, and he felt it was the connection he couldn't ignore.

"Don't you have a friend you could go with?" He felt a little unsure about this venture. She texted back about her friend Mona. Still, it felt he was right back where he started. After a little while, she texted back that Mona's Aunt could take them.

Kevin looked surprised as if this was what he'd been waiting for.

"How old is her Aunt?" He wanted to know.

"I think she's in college," Dakota told him in the next text.

"I guess I could go." He texted back. Still, he would meet them there. If it didn't work out, he could leave early. Still, he felt he was putting himself out there, and for what?

He pressed his lips tight after she gave him the time. Maybe, if he did find someone to date on his own, Sheena would stop trying to fix him up. He knew Sheena's boyfriend didn't like him much.

Actually, he was certain no one liked him, but Dakota. He hated being the third wheel. But just how was he supposed to do this? He was beginning to think he was a natural born jerk.