Vanna didn't know where to start, so it took her over a week or so to get up the nerve to say it to Koda.
"I really hate apologies," she began. "But, but I know I overreacted." She nodded. She wanted to leave it at that, but the more she stared at him she knew she could say more. It was just she hadn't had to.
Sure, they went on with their daily lives. He cooked her food. They watched TV together. Sometimes, laughed together when something was funny on TV. Hell, they even cuddled and more.
She winced, thinking how could she. Yes, a part of her really needed him. Wanted him. She had no backbone. "I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry too," Koda said quick enough. Still, she wondered if they should decide on something. She wasn't sure what that something was. Of course, he didn't say, "I won't do it again." Nothing like that. They were both mute for the longest time.
"Just-" She winced hard ready for a meltdown. "Just tell me..you don't want to cut off your penis or anything."
He looked at her blankly.
Vanna cleared her throat. She'd hate think what her mom would say if she was here. Was she really just worthless white trash? Maybe. But the world was so complicated. It just felt weird to have conversations like this. She really didn't know what Koda needed. She didn't think it was a doctor. Possibly of a support group of some kind.
Maybe she'd just google this and find out it was this common thing with a lot of couples. Well, some couples. She couldn't imagine her dad's broad shoulders in her mom's D-cup bra, but who knew? She cringed the thought.
"I just want us to be OK." She nodded.
"Me too." He looked sad though. She hugged him.
"I love every inch of you," Vanna cried into Koda's tee. "Please don't leave me." Even when she said it, she knew .... give him an inch and he'd take miles off her life.
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ReplyDeleteOh I loved the happy ending!
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Good to apologize anyway.
ReplyDeleteYou are so talented.
ReplyDeleteApologizing is a good beginning to start a conversation.
ReplyDeleteSo affectionate this time
ReplyDeleteSo affectionate this time
ReplyDeleteA very good story.
ReplyDeleteRegards.
Hello!! A really good chapter.
ReplyDeleteBlessings!!
Tough conversation! Sounds like she knows Koda might be good and bad for her simultaneously? Curious to see where goes...
ReplyDeleteUy pobre, a ver que pasa. Te mando un beso.
ReplyDeletethat is so good they were talking about this issue. I think it will be better now!
ReplyDeleteAnyway, it's good to talk about the problem.
ReplyDeleteHola! Espero que todo vaya bien al final, quedo pendiente del próximo capítulo. Besos
ReplyDeletedoing good at right time is important....
ReplyDeleteI think...
Me alegro de que se haya disculpado y espero todo se resuelva para bien
ReplyDeleteIt's good that Vanna is trying with Koda. And that she recognizes what a great guy he is and that they have a connection. When she says the thing about him hopefully not wanting to cut off his penis, it's like she's putting her biggest fear out there in hopes that he'll reassure her. I think that's why he looks at her so blankly. Because this is a situation where he needs support, but she's kind of sort of making it about her. It's like that thing about every couple needing a gardener and a flower. Vanna is clearly the flower -- we know that because Koda cooks for her. Maybe that's Vanna's real fear, that she can't be the flower any more. It's all very interesting, and you do an incredible job of exploring the nuances of Koda and Vanna's relationship. I can't wait to read more!
ReplyDeleteOn another note, I'm so glad to hear you're enjoying nice weather! It's beautiful here today too, although the weather people are predicting cold rain tomorrow.