Friday, June 18, 2010
learning a new dance
He caught the tire.
"That's a pretty good swing you got there." He smiled as if she wasn't mad at him at all.
"SHUT UP!" Her teeth gnashed as if she could spit on him if he got any closer. "I don't have anything to say to you!"
"I know. I deserve that." He felt the heat of his anguish coming over him in a sweat. Yes, he knew he was in trouble now. "But look, we can work this out. We can." Of course, these were things his mother had told him to tell her. It was as if she didn't think he could even think for himself. She practically told him he was a man whore and needed be castrated. Something like that. Disgusting was somewhere in one of her tizzies over the phone. "We could get married."
"Are you out of your mind!" She was getting farther away.
"OK. I know." He closed his eyes. "But, but its-"
"What? What they want? Look, Nick was happy when he found out about this. And he-he said I could even live with them if I wanted." She crossed her arms.
"Yeah, that's just it. I don't know if I can handle my brother having anything to do with this. It would be just- I dunno. Wrong." He winced.
"What? You want strangers to raise your kid?" She frowned.
"No. I don't want that, either. I want us to be a family." He shrugged.
"Get real." She turned from him then.
Rex let out a breath.
"Just don't do anything, will you? Just give me a chance." He bit his upper lip. "I'm not going anywhere. I will be there for you. If you let me."
He knew she was crying then. He touched her shoulder. She flinched from him. Rex knew he had his work cutout for him.