I was not ready for the fall

It was hard to think straight. Or was it Ivy was full of sadness and just couldn't function?

She'd dreamed of Jay being Keanu's father. Evidently, it was a fantasy now.

What was she doing with him, after all?

She couldn't eat. She couldn't sleep. She knew Jay was doing the best for her, but still, it wasn't right, not having her baby Keanu around. And there didn't seem an end in sight that that might change.

Brian had him and he wasn't going to give him back.

She felt herself shutting down. She felt so useless now.

Brian's place was bare and cold and they only had each other to keep warm. Even if her Keanu was here she wasn't sure she would want him to have to endure this place. It wasn't until now that Ivy realized how good she had it back home.

Who could help her now?

Jay got a call back from one of the bread stores. He could have a day job delivering bread to different grocery stores. That would help, but it made her all the more lonely when he wasn't here.

Of course, she told him she would get a job. Only she didn't want too. Surely, there was someone out there who could help her.