How come when you know everything about a person, it's hard to love them? The question remained on Jory's mind for some time. Of course, he'd done a lot of things he never thought he'd do.
Like texting a novel to Poppy about all of Alfie's sex life while Jory was out in Florida. He just felt the need to do it and when he sent it... he didn't regret it. At least, he hoped she would leave Alfie.
In a far-off dream, he could see himself running back to Poppy and taking her away to Denver or maybe Seattle. They'd find jobs and live in the woods and forget everyone back home. Of course, she never texted back. It was baffling. Didn't she know what she'd gotten herself into?
Maybe he didn't even know what he was getting himself into? Actually, he felt he was right back where he started. He'd shut himself down when he was with his adoptive parents. He didn't want anything they wanted to give him. He couldn't say why he was like that. Maybe something was just missing in his DNA or he couldn't get over the fact that his real family never found him.
He could have a rich life in a posh house and everything perfectly manicured, but he didn't want that. He wanted a home.
Why did he listen to that stupid conversation of Rachel's? Which lead to more stupid words. Her trying to explain herself about what happened with Dan. And even what happened with her and Alfie. Oh, it made him miserable.
How did it all go in reverse? He just knew he'd fallen out of love with life. What were they going to do to him? If anyone knew? Medication? He didn't want that. He wanted to do the right thing. That's all he'd ever wanted.
Find his sister and be nearby for the rest of his life. But he found himself even more depressed. What had happened to Lynsey? Was she just as sad as he was? Oh, she had that family that raised her and she had a bunch of adopted siblings. She wouldn't need him anyway. Would she?
He felt he might as well have been walking on the moon. Still, Rachel loved him more than she ever did. He knew he didn't deserve it. At least, he didn't feel so bad about Dan now. Good for him he just got drunk and threw up on her. Actually, he got a smile out of that.
But now, he just couldn't bounce back and say everything was OK..because it wasn't. And he didn't know how. A part of him felt like leaving Rachel. But he had nowhere to go, but work. He did like his job. He knew some didn't even have that. There were people on the other side of the world wanting this life. Maybe even a few right here in this little mid-west town.
And then to find out about the baby. They were going to have a baby. He was going to be a dad. His heart ached so much. He was certain he'd fall on the floor and ... but he didn't collapse. Rachel was right. Let it go. Play that stupid Frozen song on repeat in your head until it was your mantra. He guessed.
He hugged Rachel in the bathroom that night. This was one thing he wasn't letting go of.
Beautiful emotions ❤
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ReplyDeleteSo sweet ♥ Have a wonderful day
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Me gustó más este capítulo, creo que las emociones salieron a flote. ♥
ReplyDeleteI liked this chapter better, I think the emotions came to the surface. ♥ 💕💖❤ Thank you
Deletehe should be happy! He will be a daddy and have his own family soon
ReplyDeleteThe coming of the baby should do wonders to the parents' relationship. Hopefully, Jory will calm down and see life in a more positive way.
ReplyDeleteIt is hard being a parent.
ReplyDeleteUy pobrecito pero espero que las cosas se mejoren . Te mando un beso
ReplyDeleteVai ser uma mudança de vida, ser mãe ou ser pai muda a cabeça da pessoa, não tem como fugir disso...Tem que se adaptar!
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It's going to be a life changer, being a mother or being a parent changes a person's mind, there's no getting away from it... You have to adapt!
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Nice post with Emotions! I love this kind of "emotion". It is Very warm, very hearthy and friendly. Good job! Thanks Dear Ellie!
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"How come when you know everything about a person, it's hard to love them?" That's an attention grabber; as they say, familiarity breeds contempt! All the drama with Jory is just, wow. But then you rein it all back in with such a poignantly hopeful ending: "Rachel was right. Let it go. Play that stupid Frozen song on repeat in your head until it was your mantra. He guessed. He hugged Rachel in the bathroom that night. This was one thing he wasn't letting go of." Your writing is excellent, lyrical yet relatable, and plot-wise, I love when things come full circle. Not that there aren't still a ton of fireworks left for Rachel and Jory. I can't wait to see how they handle this pregnancy.
ReplyDeleteGlad you found those Chinese dramas where "everyone and their grandma were Kung Fu fighting," ha ha, even if they may put you to sleep. Is it research for your fantasy blogs? I imagine there's a lot to read up on for those kind of storylines! I look forward to the next installments. :)
Finally, thanks so very much -- a banana bunch, really -- for featuring my little fruit barrette in your collage!!! As always, you rock. :)
I am so glad I kind find a spot for your fruit barrette too!
DeleteDeep thoughts. Sometimes it is hard to love a person when we know them well.
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