Monday, May 9, 2022

the fork in the road

 


Valentina couldn't believe Matty was saying this. It was like someone else had taken over his body. This was not Matty at all.

"I think we should..should take a break," he said during their long walk at the park. It finally felt like spring and this was what she got.

"What?" She came closer. Did she hear him correctly, but he was crying and for the first time she knew she'd hurt him, after all. She sighed.

"I'm no good at this," he shook his head no as he blubbered away. It was in the twilight, but it didn't do much good to make this anymore romantic.

A lump lodged in her throat from the raw emotion.

"But..but we've got prom," she reminded him. There was a prom this year. They needed to go to prom.

"I don't care. I can live without prom," he nodded. "I just don't want to be..worried..about..you know.."

"Why are you so worried," she took his hand. She would not give up on him.

"I know you think it's impossible..that..that you'd ever, you know have a baby right now." He pressed his lips tight. They'd talked about this in the beginning, but of course, it had made her sleepy then and she'd said she didn't think she'd ever have children.

It felt as if they'd gone full circle. She winced tears. Why was it like this? It was as if they were different worlds after all, and yet they had their own little world that evidently didn't belong.

"What do I have to do?" She wanted to know. No way could she give him up. It wasn't possible. "You know, I only want to be with you. Not anyone else."

He nursed his bottom lip and finally cleared his throat. "I want you to ..to get birth control," Matty said. Even if she did there would be months of just dating. She wasn't sure how she could go back to that.

Val squinted. She didn't like this at all, but she'd do it for Matty.


19 comments:

  1. Oh wow- tough conversation, a lot of emotions here!

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    1. It's hard to say who wants to be the responsible one and who loves each other more. It's a slippery slope.

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    2. It really is. I'm looking forward to seeing where they take this!

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    3. Thanks, hopefully I can figure out the right way to get out of this situation. Years ago I had read this romp of a teen (British novel) called Doing It which became a very short series in an Americanized version which did not have the character that the British novel had. And what I liked most about that novel was learning the various relationships. Of course, in this scenario..you have someone who's calling the shots and doesn't want to breakup.

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  2. hm that is strange... He wants to take a break because she does not take birth control pills? They can use condoms as well:)

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    1. They are in a complicated situation.
      1. She is older than him. & in college. He is a Junior in high school. Although, looks can be deceiving..as in he looks to be older than her.
      2. Yes, there is some protection. Which is better than no protection. Still, he worries if that's enough after listening to others who have advised him they should be on better birth control. Also, he feels their relationship has grown more physical, yet there are a lot of emotions too.

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    2. ok I see! Im also older than my husband:) That is funny because when I was younger I did not interested in younger boys xd

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    3. When I was in high school, most of my boyfriends were like a year younger than me. Although, they were the ones getting asked if they were going out with a middle schooler. Actually, the "faceclaim" of Matty I had seen him in period piece, and he came off as I would say someone in his mid-twenties and was shocked to learn later he wasn't that old.

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  3. Wooo Interesting chapter
    thanks for sharing
    I hope you have amazing week
    Kisses ♥

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  4. Uy espero que las cosas se resuelvan Genial fragmento. Te mando un beso.

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  5. Un capítulo interesante, todas las precauciones son pocas, pero debería tomar la decisión ella. Besos

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  6. Well, this is always difficult ... they should both agree on the same thing.

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  7. I definitely saw a breakup between these two coming. But then when Matty dials it back and says he'll hang in there if Val goes on the Pill, I was surprised. And not unpleasantly! Maybe they can make it work if he feels more secure about preventing pregnancy. Then again, this could just be one of those low and slow breakups that takes a while to stick. We shall see.

    Thanks for including my Easter florals in the collage! You made them look so fresh and pretty. :)

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    1. Thank you for all your inspiration. Yes, this might be the longest break up ever ❤️

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