Queen of despair

 

Oh, it was wearing thin, or so Poppy imagined her love life with Alfie. On one hand, it was all working out, when she thought about it. They got along. They were really a couple. It was just..somebody wanted sex all the time.

"Can't we do anything else!" She knew she screeched. She hadn't meant to, but have a phone call from the Aunt who raised her and suddenly Poppy got a different perspective. She was not going to bring it up, but she couldn't help it as she was doing the laundry and the dishes. Of course, she should be thinking of the new job she started at the bank. It wasn't full-time yet, but it could be. 

"What?" Alfie was a little bug-eyed and of course, he didn't hear her. He came up from behind her and put his arms around her waist. Of course, she sighed and he kissed her swan-like neck in response. She winced. Of course, she liked it, but she knew she shouldn't. She pulled away.

"What's the matter with you?" He wanted to know, he let go and he went to dry some dishes.

"Maybe it's work, you know. I dunno if I really fit in," she festered a frown she didn't mean to make him mad, but maybe he should be. She looked him over. Maybe he needed a haircut. She'd gotten one. She was trying to play the grownup part now.

"What?" He looked at her as if she was the one angry, not him. 

"You." She drew a small frown. How could she explain it, "Remember that time, you came home before you even got to work, just to say you forgot something, and..and we had a quickie on the couch."

He shook with laughter as if he thought those were the best of times, not the worst. "What's got into you? Who have you been talking to?" He assured her that she shouldn't let other people plan the rules of their sex life. 

"My aunt seems to think you could find a better job," she was even lipped.

"Well, I'm going to be a pharmacist, it takes a long time to be a pharmacist." He told her he was going to actually start his pharmacist classes later this month and it hadn't been easy getting a scholarship or two to do it. As it was, the drugstore he worked at was helping pay some of the tuition.

She looked at him as if he had an excuse for everything. Of course, she knew this was no time to start picking on the guy she'd always wanted, but now it was beginning to feel she was missing something that everyone else had. Maybe it was money or just a different way of living.

"Look, everybody wants what we've got," Alfie smirked.

Still, it barely paid the bills and she knew she wouldn't be getting anything new to wear for another year.